You may have noticed a new theme. Optimism. Joy juice. Love. Hope. Calm. Call it what you will, I have it. I have started taking steps back and taken a critical look at who I am now and who I was then.
Then, when I was alone.
Then, when I was me but darker.
I saw it first looking through my old chemistry notes, of all places. I saw my hand writing, how it looked like my dads. How it sprawled in a focused, angular way.
Now it is softer.
I have learned many things this quarter so far. And not just how to project an aerial image into WGS 1984 projection. Or how to calculate the ionic strength and activity of magnesium (I still don't really know how to do that- but don't tell the guy in the white lab coat).
I have learned that when
you approach the day with a positive attitude..
it goes by faster.
you get more done.
you make people laugh, and they make you and there is generally more smiles in your life.
When your kitchen is clean and your house is vacuumed...
your home is homier.
your husband is happier.
you don't have a "I should get this done" black, heavy cloud hanging over your couch-sitting time.
When you don't worry about what will happen..
you are pleasantly surprised when something works out exactly like you wanted,
and have faith that something else will happen to help you decide what to do.